some rambly thought/s, sort of on process, sort of on claiming a label/title, and also on humility

I don’t think I can aim to make art head on. In order for art to happen I need to first aim for something else. Art is what exists in the peripheral, like a cushion around other things; or, often, a response. It sorta works like cytoplasm in a cell around it’s components, if the cell is our whole world, and the cellular components are the “things” we make art about or, in response to. To me, love functions the same. It’s not worth aiming for something head on that intangibly binds friends, family, ideas (etc.). Love is an invisible connector between parts; it becomes apparent when you pursue--as an example--spending time with people who make you laugh, and who care to listen to you, and vice versa. You eventually just notice it (love) is there...in your peripherals. So, trying to capture it head on is besides the point, and doesn’t leave room for surprise, anyway. How boring. All this to say...I think my process and creative spurs (when it comes to making art) aren’t something I want to try to control or force, because I trust they’ll be there and show themselves when they do. And, I’d rather identify, first, as a friend, family-member, and person with a job who wants to help others before I grant myself some title (artist) that seems to distinguish me, unecessarily, from others. Plus, I believe anyone can be an artist if they want to be.

i love being around people who are comfortable and content in smallness